let's change the world.

it's now that i can voice why my current job is not the end all, be all for my employment situation. although i have known it since the day i started, putting a 'reason,' a 'reality' to it has been hard. and finding the words to explain it has been even harder.

but through looking at the community around me, looking within myself, listening to lots of inspirational speakers, thinking about my past experiences, etc., i've realized... i had it right when i wrote the summary for my linkedin profile:

My goal in life and in work is to have the ability to help people make the changes they want to see in the world. I want to help people; to be their resource and shoulder in their pursuits. I want to provide the chance for personal development in others and create not only their greatest imagined potential, but a reality that is actually far past what they may imagine.

where i'm at now i'm not helping make change. i'm not moving others forward. i'm not creating chances for personal development in others.
i am left to change headings. worry about things that don't (in my mind) need to be worried about. redo the same thing twenty times before i'm told to resort back to what my original thought was.

it's not motivating. it's not making a difference. it's simply... work.
and that's never who i've wanted to be. never what i've wanted to do.

(this is the point you tell me, well in your free time you could do all those other things)... and you're right. and i do. but being in a place where you are continually required to do things that don't really matter in your eyes is well... draining.

i'm tired of being drained at the end of the day from doing nothing. i want to put my heart into what i do. every day. in every way i possibly can.
and i'm ready for that (have been ready for that).

it's time to get back to helping. get back to being a resource. a shoulder. a chance for growth and new-found potential.
it's time i put the words to what is frustrating rather than just being frustrated.

let's change the world.