the awkward bump.

disclaimer: this is not the post where i announce i'm pregnant despite the reference to a 'bump' in the title.

instead. this is a reference to an article i read earlier today. a reference to 'the single life.' a reference to the hope we all hold onto for that awkward bump that leads to more. that leads to forever.

maybe i'm crazy OR maybe i just live in this world where i'm under the spell of the fairy tale. either way. i'm good with it.

i like living with the hope. i like believing in true love (even if i know true love is something that takes time, work, communication... and compromise... among a million other things). i like believing that true love is still possible in a world where weiner communicates via text and facebook with every woman he can lure into his fantasy despite having a wife who stands at his side as it all comes crashing down.

i might be nearing the age of thirty and not yet found that perfect 'career'. i might be single. i might own a condo and have a puppy. but i still believe the fairy tale is possible for me (and anyone else for that matter).
what's the point of giving in and going with it for something that is merely comfortable?

the fairy tale is not comfortable. it is real. through the ups and downs. through the kisses and late-night fights. and this is me hoping. me offering up hope for everyone else in the same place.

it's out there. the awkward bump that leads to more. the awkward bump that leads to a life spent in tandem. the awkward bump that brings two people together to extend the family you already know and love.

so as the weekend arrives... cheers to believing. cheers to hoping.
cheers to the awkward bump.

cheers to never reliving high school.

i'm behind the times. (especially when it comes to television shows).
and i just now started watching gossip girl. about 10 years late.

but it makes me feel special because... for the first time in my life, i have the hip phone. the one that isn't even available in the world of the early seasons of gossip girl. i'm light years ahead of the almighty popular crowd (and let me tell you, this is not something that happened on a regular basis during my high school years).

so thank you, gossip girl, for allowing me to be cool... even if it is ten years too late.

the weekend i became a fair queen judge.

(now where's my reality show?)

but really, this past weekend i became a fair queen judge. complete with bio announcement, special seating, and a light so i could write down my scores.

i must say, one of my favorite parts of the journey to fair queen judge was the drive north through the country. the endless farmland made me want to be a farmer (or a farmer's wife). even though i know what a tough life it can be... there's something simple and majestic that is on exhibit around every turn.
even in the man stopped on the side of the highway cutting wildflowers to take home to his (i'm guessing) sweetheart.

simple. i long for that. long for the chance to not worry about if i have the 'latest' clothes, 'latest' shoes, 'latest' boyfriend.
i want to raise children to appreciate the beauty around them. the beauty in the birth of an animal. the beauty in watching a storm take over the horizon.

to experience the nation. not just to experience the daily grind. i want to teach through exploration. learn through trying it out. and love because in the end, it's really all we can do.

do you want to run away with me? a camper? a computer? a camera? and maybe a stop along the way to judge a fair queen pageant...
(let's go. let's leave it all behind).

were you wondering?
i said i would be better at this. i promised myself i would be.
(and then i left town)

traveled via car through 11 states in a mere 10 days with stopovers in florida and texas. vacation is supposed to be therapeutic, relaxing, worthy of the time you take off from work... and i guess in many ways this jaunt across the southern states was all those things. but there's a piece of me that wonders now that i'm back and trying to get in the everyday groove.

was it?
i'll let you decide. stay tuned.